Thank you to all of you who sent me emails, messages and DM’s offering encouraging words about me going through my divorce. I received so many kind and encouraging words and I apologize that I have not been able to answer them.
I have thought about how much I want to say and don’t want to say about our marriage as I know my platforms (the blog and social media) are public and I’m not one to bash anyone publicly. I will say that I have loved my husband and my daughter (who many of you know passed from brain cancer in 2019) more than any other people in my life. I realize I had lost a part of myself trying to keep the other person happy. I know I did all that I could and sacrificed a lot of myself these past couple of years, no matter how hard you try, you cannot change how the other person feels, who they are, nor how they want to live their life.
This past year my body and mind have been through much distress. During the past year, my weight gradually increased, but I didn’t know the cause. My weight had reached 196 pounds and I could no longer wear a lot of my clothes. I didn’t feel motivated, I worried a lot and I felt I was losing my creativity. I know my weight gain was due my body being under constant stress. The past couple of weeks, going through the separation and divorce, I have experienced all kinds of emotions (sadness, anger, confusion and much anxiety).
Today, as I’m writing this, I’m starting to have some peace in my life. I know I have a long way to go to once again feel like myself, but I know with God’s help I will get there. I have had much support from family, friends and my church family. I am truly thankful for those who have been so supportive and encouraging (especially my 2 sister-in-laws from my previous marriage and two other close friends). Please say a prayer for me as we meet with the lawyer tomorrow for our divorce.
If you are going through a difficult time in your life, just know I am thinking about you and praying for you. Things WILL get better. It may take some time, but you will get through it. Take time for yourself and time to heal. Lean on God and He will guide you through it. He has walked with me during some tough times in my life. ❤️
Philippians 4:6-7 is a great verse for all of life’s stresses, and seems so appropriate for you right now. I have prayed for you and will continue to keep you in my prayers.
Much love. It is such a stressful thing, and it takes time to feel normal. But, as you know, God is in charge and has blessings for you.
Leanne, I am so sorry that you are going through this, you have been through so much, my heart aches for you! I wish I could make it easier, but I know only the Lord can do that – He is with you always, He absolutely treasures you and knows all that you’re going through, He knows every tear you’ve cried! I pray that you feel His presence close to you, especially now as you go forward! 🙏💝 (By the way, you have the best fashion blog online by far!)
Praying for peace, comfort and emotional healing for you. ❤️🙏🏻
I just read a book by Jim Collins – What to Make of Life and he talks about how everyone has cliffs in their lives – the loss of your daughter was one and now your impending divorce is another – the big life changing events put you in a fog, but eventually you will come out. It is going to be hard because so much in your life changes but you can and will come out stronger on the other side. I watched my daughter divorce with two small children and when her fog lifted she decided to get a second degree as a nurse somehow we find a way to heal. Thank you for sharing your life with everyone because in a way we become invested via the internet. You will have many people thinking of you while you go through this transition and discover a new part of you.
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Love and prayers, I had wondered if something was going on behind the scenes. Divorce is such an emotionally loaded process. It is good that you have recognised the impact it is having on your health and hopefully are prioritising doing something about it. Blessings.